Open Your Eyes

Open your eyes so divine to this very world, construction of the mind has begun. Sit up and take a moment to collect yourself, make sure you can see clearly before standing. As you put together your daily necessities, be sure to put a lock on your heart. It gets real cold outside. The sun is shinning and teeth are showing, the meteorologist predicted positivity this fine day. Focus your life's vision into your box of goals & day to day seek them out. Easy you say? Not so much. Dedicate this day to something different than each day, you'll never get bored of something new. The outcome is a gift when seeking within yourself for greatness, Be but purified in the light of he who carry's you out from the darkness.Be you & be wise, be free & be alive …. Take life by the hand and straighten out the wrinkles... The day is over and your mind is clear. Your vision is flawless and your heart is bold … Relax until tomorrows goal ….

Mind dysfunction && Dissolution to Solution

Mindfully we travel in and out of worlds that we create from the worlds that exist in other peoples minds, although we try to make ourselves known and yet we convince our self that we are happy when in fact we have only chosen to settle for searching is far too risky, Sour is who we become and selfish due to the loneliness we acquire in developing a more depressed side of who we really are. Sadly some people cannot come back from the place they created. The ups and downs of the emotions we go through that have confused our minds, we desire it all, and in wanting it all, we only self destruct. In order to be completely happy we must start searching within ourselves. Though discovering who we are will be hard work. Without a struggle in life finding one’s self is UN-accomplish able. It’s one step at a time and one day at a time. The main focus in happiness starts with your own first. If you are not happy with you then how will you ever be happy with someone else? That is a problem people have, they try to find happiness and a life satisfactory in the arms of another then they become sour for that void they have yet filled. The solutions are simple if willing to follow find yourself first, make yourself happy and when you accomplish these things then you will be able to make someone else happy. You will be able to know that no matter what, you can be yourself without judgments or criticism. We only have one goal in this life, and that is to live it the best we can. We are born and then we die. What is in between that is the roads that we choose to live.

Will You Ever .....?

Its a cold world out there, its a hard world out there.

Tomorrow was never promised today they say

Today and every day I share my heart away.

Emotional to logic that keeps the pain from insane,

Rough moment to ever lasting gain in a solo game as we play,

Running in circles till our minds spin us out of control,

Out of our comfort zone into somewhere like no where we feel safe.

Life is our soul, we can be strong or be bold.

Follow our self to the ends of the battle,

over and over as we follow our shadow.

What is real & does it exist?

Can a smile be, can it be true.

Do you mean what you say when you say I Love You?

Walk through the door to the back.

That's how quick you can react, in affect to what people lack.

Can you define me in whole, can you know the real me and still

leave me alone?

Peace and tranquility its whats desired,

unfair punishments tortured like burning fire.

It hurts to love but it hurts to stay,

wondrous creation, inspiring lair I must say,

Built differently yet created the same you fight the war,

ill fight the game.

Will you ever...

see what I see,

feel how I feel,

appreciate my love

defend our..... is there?

Can we?

Can you?

Is It Possible?

Will you Ever..........?

Today

 Open your eyes so divine to this very world, construction of the mind has begun. Sit up and take a moment to collect yourself, make sure you can see clearly before standing. As you put together your daily necessities, be sure to put a lock on your heart. It gets real cold outside. The sun is shinning and teeth are showing, the meteorologist predicted positivity this fine day. Focus your life's vision into your box of goals & day to day seek them out. Easy you say? Not so much. Dedicate this day to something different than each day, you'll never get bored of something new. The outcome is a gift when seeking within yourself for greatness, Be but purified in the light of he who Carry's you out from the darkness.

Be you & be wise, be free & be alive …. Take life by the hand and straighten out the wrinkles...This day now is over and your mind is clear. Your vision is flawless and your heart is bold … Relax until tomorrow ….

                              

Who We Are

Strengthen thy heart, let not our emotions control the logic that makes us who we are . Keep sane within our mind keep not influenced by the lives of others but of our own... Seek out our destiney and make that our grand prize, let not no one be the cause of our failures and stay on the path we have been given... each living hour is a chance to make something out of nothing, let us grow taller and expand our hearts to our visions...  Be not a shadow of life, be one who builds a building of our goals and stand on top and watch below... Be who you want, create your life and control your own destiney, be not selfish, but giving... Be not weak , but strong .... Let no one take your kindness for weakness ... and live like tomorrow will not come..

 4/10/2011

Words Could Not Define

Something that never existed until Then....

An endured pain from the past that led them here, a place that was waiting for them both to meet. The eye contact and mental knowledge of a feeling that was uncertain had no name. And when the moment came she spoke and he responded...

 Do we as people really understand why we are here and our purposes to exist? No words by man could define the true life answers to the questions we have. All I can say from my own life experiences is that personally as long as I walk this Earth I want nothing more than to have a life that is abundant, truthful, loyal and full of a great passion for my soul...

 We are given chances to live and be productive and make our lives the best we know how. There are many opportunities to not do just that...

 So the first hours alone in a place full of souls where words crossed along with smiles that could light up a room all on its own. Where the feeling of floating on clouds were defiantly in the air. The shy temptation to sneak a kiss he knows will capture her.

 And their Hearts started to speak....

 Each waking moment we set out in search of desires and until we are satisfied fully like a hearty meal. We will waste moments on learning experiences, to continuous dead ends we travel distant lengths until we are certain that this stop sign would be the last.

                                

                                                                    My First Love

Be But Only Honest

Loves desire is such a creation and a gift for true loyalty and commitment of the soul,its a choice we are blessed to make upon the first look into his eyes. happiness is created upon ones own will and passion for life developed through time and space. We all want the same things out of our existence. Wake to the morning glory and pray of thanks and hope for days continued joy within ones heart. be forever honest to thy self and know that in the end its your story, whether it be graceful or horrid. you are the key holder to your life's desires and accomplishments. When one loves,  it should be continuous without question, but from deep withing the very existence of where you stand.The body of love and lust is a confusion to many that have been spiteful to themselves, this crave for a touch by another is delicate and one must be so careful as to not destroy its pure being. once again allowing the darkness to rise in the mist of a moment between loving and lusting.... take ones heart not for granted but cherish it as of your own flesh.. 

One heart One Soul One Love...... I am Still waiting .... 

Is It Possible

We tend to build walls from agony of pain in which we have endured from trusting another human being to give us loyalty and love. The greatness of a life any person could ever wish for, but instead we either become just like those that hurt us and take it out on the next person or we continue to find what we yearn so much for. Emotions become either weak or reserved, so the brick walls begin to reach higher and higher. Is it so difficult to give your all to a person and be sincere about it with every beat of your heart? Or is it easier to pretend for a moment in order to get the crave out of your system and just move on. Human beings are worse than animals, smelling out your prey to attack and eat every bit of what is left of that person. We are not perfect. For that I am sure. I too have played my roles, though the reason for the role I played was out of spite from the past; something we all have taken to the next place in search of Love, to the next Love in search of place. Though the walls we build keep us from giving chances to those that are capable of this greatness they call love. Somehow we see past it as another trick in the game. Maybe one day people will realize that the feeling that sets your soul on fire is a feeling worth more than lighting a match and blowing it out. Is it possible? Can someone truly and unconditionally Love as we are 100% ?

A Little Advise

Life is a puzzle and as each day passes we pick up the pieces to put the puzzle together. It starts with a thought and turns into actions. So at the end you can appreciate life's gifts or you can be blinded by the unknown and lose yourself to less of what your original desires were. Seek out your happiness and know your worth, you are Gods child, in his hands all things are possible.

By: Vanessa McGrath

Forever In My Heart

All I have ever wanted out life was to accomplish anything that brought me to a better life, be able to take care of my own family and be happy. Deep within my heart i feel a void and all though it has been 13 years the feeling still remains the same. his face of with such comfort in knowing he would always protect me from the pain he knew would make me weak. He was a great part of my life, the only man I believed could ever amount to anything for his heart was stone to all that was bad. Afraid of nothing as his memories lay deep within my heart. As another year passes by and his soul i believe is what helps me to be stronger. Feeling as if his spirit is within every step i make and every breath take to gain the courage to move on. Knowing What he would have wanted. the experiences I have encountered on this journey to find out who i am and where I belong, with God as he watches over us, as we wake every morning and sleep each night. His smile would light up the night and his strength could win wars. His love could melt you heart and his passion for life would have brought world peace. Loved by many and respected by all, having been blessed to be a major part of his life besides his mother and sisters, forever in our hearts and connected to my soul. I want to be more like how he was and become real bold. Artistic, romantic, logical and realistic, the best brother of his sisters and only son of an amazing mother. James Micheal McGrath- He was my brother..

R.I.P Never Forgotten, always remembered. Forever in our hearts....
I LOVE YOU JIMMY 5/09/79 - 8/08/97

By : Vanessa McGrath

Cold Hearted

hearts are cold love untold beneath stars , do you know where we are....
I gave in to a little gin mixed with red bull to give me wings, as I fly in the sky,, so afraid i might get shot down,,, bullets to my heart.. I want a healthy start...
A new drink for the night my favorite drink for the rest of my life...
candy so sweet , eat enough to make my teeth rotten green from having so much of the same sour taste that doesn't go away, time for a teeth cleaning....
oh is it raining and washing away my day my prayer answered should i go or should i stay... blind yesterday i can see today ...yay oh yes i can see like a new pair of classes on sale at the store...don't like that one what a bore!
tasty as i taste in my dream but i wake up and get mean to you from me i love you, you love me as happy as we can be, but a dream
neva dat can you know my stelo cause i can grow in to a crow and peck at you till you are low to the ground as i wear my crown and look at you but only down...
Vanessa McGrath

copywright2008

The Truth

You forget, You regret
In despair, You glare
Standing alone, Nothing to know
Many things you fear, Never knowing whose here
Teachers teaching, Preachers preaching
They learn nothing, They just want things
Never say never, Things don't last forever
Respect is for thee, Love isn't free
Heads up high, Its harder to die
You travel far, But you forget who you are
Just to find out what this world is about
Just play pretend it’s almost the end
Family is closer than a friend
Only death can make it end
In your heart there is a vision, don't ever follow,
Make your own decisions

Copyright ©2007 Vanessa M McGrath 

( Received 2007 Editors Choice award For poetry.com)

Judgement

Why it is that as years pass and our experiences begin to run against us as we search roads of our destiny. It could be our back round, our past experiences on our resumes or even love. We go through our own battles that eventually lead us in to forgetting who we are or what we are to become. Shattered dreams as I have been told I would never make it, yet the will within me keeps going because I know that no matter how high in life you are, there will always be someone there to try and break you down. One man’s pain is another man’s pleasure, How much more selfish at heart can one be. Broken dreams and broken hearts become one in a hurtful place. We are human created to be born and die, the only man we answer to is God, while we give praise to Jesus, as he gave his life for us and so we receive the Holy Spirit that gives us peace in our souls and cleans us of our sins. Far from perfect but mistakes are known to be made, yet judged by one or another who hasn’t the mouth to speak for he is of no God. Strong is not just a word, it is an action that we choose to take to keep from letting human kind break us. Life is what you make of it, stand tall or be buried in the debris of those who have passed you by for your choice to settle. Experiences become wisdom and wisdom is within the ages of our life we have lived either fulfilled or half done. Though our past is what apparently can make us or break us if we are just beginning our life, for some people refuse to accept you for who you are or what you have done. The harsh reality has risen from beneath the floors and has demolished all hope for better days we look forward to. Its back to the drawing board as we review our own lives once more and seek deep within ourselves to balance our spirit, body and minds as one writer describes to help us back on the road to happiness. Self image is shaped by your elemental personality, abilities, interests, hopes, dreams and your values. Create who you are once more beyond what you have created from the beginning. Put the past behind where you stand and let in new life take you to your destination that has been chosen for you. Be not like many and trample on others along the way but help them get on the path that most refuse too. Despite what we have been through or seen, we are equal and no one is perfect, only in the eyes of God where only he can pass judgment on our lives.

Alone

Alone in a room, glued to the corner, scared of who she is, what she has become. so innocent as a child but dreams had been destroyed by influences of a world corrupted. so afraid to look in the mirror and as she got older and took herself down a path of selfishness, a place where only she had control and no one could tell her where, when ,why or how. she was almost gone. having been through so many damages and loss she gives herself to one who she thought she could trust and in return and broken heart and destroyed urge to live from all she had endured.
Given moments of faith as God stood in front of her but she could not see instead she walked right through him, Though the more abuse she would take, the more cold she became, as the obstacles kept coming at her feet she began to see that life was not going to give up on her even though she had given up on it. So as she walked into the church her body becomes weak, her eyes become watery and soul begins to smile. In moments that she prayed to God for forgiveness,in hopes that she could put all her troubles and pain in his hands. He shall heal her heart because she came on her own free will to be saved from the corruption that had kept her locked up; in the room where she was glued to the corner.

  Written 7-20-2010

Sometimes

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, Teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you really are or what you want to become.
You never know who these people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way ; And sometimes things happen to you and at times they seem horrible, painful, and unfair, but in reflection you realize that with out overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart. Everything happens for a reason. nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.An illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.Without these small tests life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. The success and downfall that you experience can create who you are and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact , they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whomever you open you heart too. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally; not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your eyes and heart to little things. Make every day count, appreciate every moment and learn from it everything you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Life Is What We Make Of It

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, gifted-ness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is "10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it". And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”